If it weren't for the daily inspiration, I would probably be a weepy, depressed mess. It is as if God is speaking directly to me, encouraging me, reminding me, promising me...
- That He is with me every step of the way
- That He is in control
- That I can trust completely in Him
It is what I cling to as I walk from my car to the office, from my office to the conference room, basically, anywhere more than five steps away. And just when I think, I can't do it anymore, I find solace in his words, knowing that in my weakness, He becomes strong, stronger than I could ever be on my own.
At first it was hard. I had to let go of those things I've been stubbornly holding on to, such as my 365 photography project. Within the depths of my soul though, I knew that I had made photography my idol and it was time to let go. It's also hard to let go of my desire to travel. I still long to heal enough to take that trip to NYC and roam the streets with my camera in hand, stopping only for coffee served in real cups.
I like to imagine that God has put me in this position for some reason. Perhaps to write, but even then I haven't done much of that either.
Still I don't give up hope. Hope that God will heal me. Hope that I will be able to walk without pain again. Hope that I will be able to stand up straight (and tall). Hope that I will be able to turn to photography without turning into my idol. Hope that I will write something meaningful. I don't give up hope because I know without a doubt that God is able.